trials of a troll trying to get by in a world messed up by humankind [ I'M AT UTC -5]

Saturday, January 7, 2006

Worship team starts up again tomorrow AM…so Saturday…if I can finagle a Saturday off is the only day of the week I can sleep without fear of the alarm clock…and I managed the afore mention task today…with little positive result…while physically I feel pretty good today…I am in a very bad place mentally…emotionally…especially over the last few hours…I am not dealing very well with the demons that infect my sense of well being…I will over come…I always do…but tonight …right now…the forces for which I have no answer are in the fore front…and although I will eventually win the day…or the hour or the minute…but right now I’m in a very bad place…

Friday, January 6, 2006

I was just watching “$40 dollars a day” w/Rachael Raye on the food network…of the shows she does this series is my fav…and although I’ve seen this particular one before, it’s my fav of all of that series…she spends the day in her home town which is Lake George, NY…which is maybe 2 and a half or 3 hours from where I have lived the last 39+ years. Now Lake George is in the eastern Adirondacks…and I live less then an hour from the western edge of that monster NY state park…one of my favorite spots on the planet is the Adirondack Museum @ Blue Mountain Lake…if you wander over on the right there and click on the link to “troll’s attic” you’ll find pics of said museum…also they have an off the wall cafeteria which is one of my two or three favorite places to eat…fresh deli sandwiches, awesome salads, and hardy soups…

Work day went surprisingly good for a Friday, and I finagled tomorrow off…as worship team is going back into the services as of this Sunday…Saturday is the only day I can actually sleep in…and I need a day bad…this has been a bad week physically…except for today that is…today I felt fine physically but started the day in a bad place emotionally…a return of the strange and disturbing dreams last night…but feel pretty good and pretty “balanced” right now…

Thursday, January 5, 2006

Okay so call me stupid…I actually stayed up to watch the end of the rose bowl game…and I really don’t like college football…I wish some one could explain that to me…not my dislike of college football but why the heck I stayed up that late…

Well had a really bad physical day all day at work…nasty…fortunately wasn’t really busy…but feel really pretty good right now, did weekly grocery shopping…got a nice boneless chuck roast…that quickly became a late supper…did some household chores and have just hung out tonight…heck that’s basically every night…

Wednesday, January 4, 2006

I failed to post last night, a rare occurrence, but I felt physically like crap all day…work wasn’t that bad but I decided to go to rehearsal. I felt lousy but since we have been on hiatus for the last several weeks I felt I really had to go to the first rehearsal back…big mistake…crashed out after rehearsal and didn’t first like posting…

Work today was way beyond work…torture would be closer to the truth…slept well last night and really didn’t feel bad going in this AM but was blown out by quitting time… just a salad for supper and a little channel surfing tonight a little tube….”White Palace” kind of a quickie flick…but I like it…have been wearing out my VCR copy of Midway…not exactly complete or 100% accurate but one of my favorite flicks…

Monday, January 2, 2006

I have had a lousy day, a nasty day, one of those days that you would never chose to have…but I have survived…I have endured…and I would suggested that you neither debate or comment to this post because anyone stupid enough to contend with the trollie tonight deserves what they get

Sunday, January 1, 2006

I have had a decent day, a reasonably good day…the second of three days off…but in no mood to consider or write about it…nite all