trials of a troll trying to get by in a world messed up by humankind [ I'M AT UTC -5]

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Refused to set the alarm this AM despite the fact that I needed to go into work for a few hours to put the end to month end numbers and inventory…figured I had until 2:30 PM…that’s when maintenance leaves…. except they pulled a fast one on me and left at noon…I was done at 11:30 but I hate it when peeps tell me one thing and do another…

Had a bunch of things I needed to do today…housework wise but none got done…just felt really low physically today and not at my tops in another way…must do those things but must have the where with all to accomplish them…

Friday, April 28, 2006

Okay so I admit to be a pathetic idiot…but I’ve gotten hooked on the charmed reruns on TnT…which start at 5PM which gives me a half an hour to get home before work and the start time…well needed to fill the car with gas…. well not fill it…the last time I did that I leaked gas and although on warrantee the dang manufacturer refuse to admit it was a fault in construction and I was out a bunch of cash I really couldn’t afford to be out…but that is another story I will not tell…so made a quick pizza as the line at the take out food place on route to home was packed…a store bought shell…evoo…minced garlic…a good NYS sharp white cheddar, and a few crushed black olives…tomato sauce is never part of a pizza for me…I like my pizzas white…I may cut a few nice roma tomatoes for a topping….or maybe a few sun dried tomatoes on top…but the “typical” pizza with tomato sauce…spare me…not my thing…

Work went surprisingly well today…a month end Friday…and when as I do you run shipping/receiving…inventory/inventory control and MRP at a small industry concern …end of month Fridays can be a b*tch…but today was a relative passive day….a few moments of craziness but basically smooth…must good in tomorrow to put the finally touches on month end inventory and dump final numbers in to the computer system for month end but no more then 3 hours unless I hit a snag…

Grass needs a cutting and that needs to be done within a few days…a few household chores as well…I really hope a awake in the right frame of mind and body to accomplish those tasks…

Did not post to the blog after watching survivor last night…I have decided that Shane may be the biggest foul every to play the game…

Thursday, April 27, 2006

I was at maybe the lowest ebb I’ve been in a long time physically…but had a very easy day…and took the PM off…and feel decent now…

Keyboard died last night…the IT guy at work loaned me one to make sure that was the problem…he owed me because I basically talked in through a problem with the ERP software…he knows computers but I know the software package we run at work better then anyone…

A quiet…gentle rest of the day

Nite all

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

This was clearly not the best day I’ve ever had, not the worst day but not the best day…explanation will follow at some point in the future…

I had to be in an hour early and I think the alarm rang for almost a minute before it aroused me from sleep…one of those times when the alarm was more a part of the last dream of the night then it was a part of reality…

By days end I was spent…no energy…no focus…got take out and watched some tube…

Watched the latest episode of top chef on bravo…Stephen is gone…finally…I thought that Leeann might have bought the farm tonight and that would have been a shame…of the four remaining only David IMHO doesn’t belong…any of the other three I would accept as the winner…

O I'm in a very bad place tonight on almost every level…but I will survive…I always have…and I always will until it is my “time”

Monday, April 24, 2006

It’s weird…I should be in a lousy mood tonight and I’m not…had made an appointment to get my annually state car inspection…knew that I had a couple of things that won’t pass…and although I spent more the I really wanted too, spent less then I thought…and although I will have to be budget careful until my tax refunds arrive I’m ok…. maybe…

But I will survive…I always do and if I don’t I probably won’t know that I didn’t….

Had a phone chat with my daughter tonight…learned things I’d never know…if I had know them I would have kicked my ex’s ass out of my life long before she left me…

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Brother stopped by briefly last night…has decided with age that the only sport still available was golf…had several questions…had bought a set of maxfli A10’s…did he make the right choice…and an invite for dinner today…saw his wife in church this morning…and parenthetically church went great…worship team rocked in both services and class went great…I was sitting in the narthex during first service and informed sis in law that I had too much to do today to come out for dinner…I had felt lousy yesterday and needed to do today what hadn’t got done yesterday…she informed me that she had told my brother that’s what I would say and simply won’t accept that response…that i owed my family my attendance…and I needed to be there…truth is my brother’s wife is the only member of the family that I would take that kind of a thought from and even consider changing my mind…we have a contention…we both are well experimental cooks…so while I have put off doing what I had intended for way too long…I went…had a nice time…but I regret having the desire to accomplish certain things but not doing that…but I’m blaming it on the K-lady…