trials of a troll trying to get by in a world messed up by humankind [ I'M AT UTC -5]

Saturday, May 13, 2006

I am in a very bad place today. I think I may actually felt pretty good today if the emotional/spiritual side had not been at such low ebb…I will get over it…help is coming…but right now…right here…not good

Friday, May 12, 2006

There will be no post tonight as I am in a very bad place

Thursday, May 11, 2006

I had lousy day…I woke up “sick as a dog” this AM, but too late to call in sick and not take a hit…went in …informed by boss that I would hang in as long as possible but would take the PM as a half vacation day if I didn’t improve…and didn’t…actually felt worse…but like 20 minutes before I left the big guy needed me…sorry…I’m out of here…I did what I needed to do to get most of what he needed done…. and as long as the purchasing clerk read her emails we can do the rest tomorrow…and if she didn’t…well…there were CC copies to my boss and the big guy and it’s on her head…not that I hold any animus against her but I did what I needed to do and the rest is on her…

Despite the fact that I felt like crap and really only wanted to get home there was banking to do…errands to runs…staple foodstuffs to buy…but have chilled the rest of the day and feel decent now…

Watched the final 4 episode of survivor and I really think Terry screwed up…he has put himself in a position where he must win the last immunity challenge…he could have protected the D-lady…his last chance at an ally and didn’t…she may survive the “playoff” with the C-lady…but if she does there is no accounting for what she might do if she wins immunity at the three…the second mistake I think he’s made…I think he should have protected Sally…at the 6…

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

I watched the “reunion” show of top chef tonight…reality reunion shows are invariably a waste of time…the only defining moment was when Stephen apologized to Candice…I was blown away…

I still am p*ssed with the final 3…Dave has no right to be there…but then the producers have the right to affect the vote (read the small print in the credits I have)…good TV and all…but if he wins I will have a big problem with the out come…of all the three chefs in the finals he has been the most inconsistent…I prefer an outcome of Harold as winner…I would accept the outcome of the red haired, bi-sexual Tiffini as winner…but the disaster that is Dave…no way

Today was a very typical day at good old CWM…I had the upstairs changing their minds on the hour…with no concern for what that did to us…I had vendors who promise one thing and either delivery it late or not on time or not at all…and support and production which do what they want rather then what I’ve asked them to do…and despite all that my clerk and I got everything done…did we get a well done…did we get a “that a boy”…are you insane…but if we hadn’t done the deed we would have gotten the blame…we do are job…we defend the “code” , but once in a d*mn while I think we deserve a well done…

But truth is I really do accept it…if you have never done shipping/receiving function you have no criteria to appreciate what we do…everything that comes in goes through us…everything that leaves goes through us…and every mistake is blamed on us whether our fault or not…but my clerk and I are bottom line what makes it run…and we would at least have 1 day out of the year have our work appreciate, have a well done…but the fact that we are under appreciated will never stop me from doing my best…

Have spent a relatively gentle nigh…I seem to be coming out of the funk that winter has created…to be truthfully we never really had a winter…was more like and extended fall…but suffered more from “cabin fever” then I ever had…need to spend a few hours at work on Saturday but will throw the clubs in the car assuming I feel well Saturday morning an find an open golf course…

Cats have been affectionate tonight…they have been rotating on and off my lap…I sometimes thing that without my furry pals I might go over the edge…assuming that I’m not there already…

Nite all

Tuesday, May 9, 2006

I woke this AM at low ebb and am preparing to go to bed in vastly better condition on all levels…great rehearsal tonight…and although struggled a little with the voice was a great time…

Watched the conclusion to big break V, and believe it or not the girl I thought had the best chance of winning from the beginning actually won…my track record on picking winners for reality shows ain’t good…

(pause while I pet cat aggie who so lonely she is on the verge of death)

Tomorrow could be anything between an easy day and a wicked one…and that depends completely on factors outside my control…

Nite all

Monday, May 8, 2006

Twas a strange day that I still am processing…and will refrain from posting several comments that I could make about the trends that swirl around me until they leave the fetal stage and are full born opinions…

Nite all

Sunday, May 7, 2006

Today was the salute to the military in our church…living in the city next to Fort Drum…we have about 40 military couples and several single soldiers that are communicants of the church…and this point we have over 50 members or attendees that are deployed in the middle east…a very nice service…of all the military or ex-military my dad was the oldest there today infantry 1st Lieutenant from WWII…and will be 91 this summer…I get a kick out of the respect he receives from the current soldiers…my dad is one of a dwindling few WWII vets left…

One of the soldiers who talked in the first service (wasn’t there but dad was, and relayed the story) made a statement that most would not understand what a line officer went through….at the end of the service dad went up and took his hand and told him he understood…and then told him where he had been during WWII…( one of the newer members who didn’t know dad’s story)…and now another who now looks at dad as a fore runner…

Had a much better physical day then yesterday…got the grass cut…still moist from yesterdays rain but could not wait any longer…unless I choice to bale it…