trials of a troll trying to get by in a world messed up by humankind [ I'M AT UTC -5]

Saturday, March 3, 2007

Life is what it is, sometimes we get what we most want, sometimes we get what we deserve, and sometimes we get what we least expect…and that’s where I find myself right now…but I will deal with it…at anytime in my life I am in the perfect place to deal with that which I never thought that I must deal with…

Friday, March 2, 2007

Not strangely, but rather predictably my interesting in blogging has been re-kindled…(there will be a brief pause here as I am in the middle of an uncontrollable fit of sneezing).

Over the least few months I have lost interest in this slag heap that I call my blog…except for one brief moment that in many ways was a huge mistake…(long since has been deleted)…but in many ways maybe the most important post I’ve ever made…because it has spawned the beginning of my next life…others made a choice that I was reluctant to make but needed to…and for that I am grateful…I have always worked off the theory that no good deed every goes unpunished…but now I feel that no misinterpreted deed ever goes un-rewarded…what many would view as the low point in my life…I view as a blessing…

The internet is a very strange place, it is a place where peeps are what the post (in blogs/newsgroups/chat rooms) say they are, but are they really what they claim to be…in most cases we will never see the real person…never see who they really are…only who they want us to see (and by seen I mean what their posts imply)…the sexy…cool…charming 20 something babe may actually be in her mid 40’s and weigh 600 lbs…if we must accept at face value those that we meet in real life…do we not have to take as a grain of salt those we meet in internet life (for lack of a better word)…if you don’t take in context what we read in internet form…then pardon but you have been deceived…if you take anything you read here…or in and internet forum as gospel…then you are ….____…fill in your own blank…and be honest…
I decided it was time for a change, I’ve been using a generic topical arthritis rub for years and lately it just hasn’t been doing the job. I decided to switch to a new topical rub the uses, as it’s active ingredient the same natural substance that makes hot peppers hot. Now this is like 3 times the money for ½ the volume of product, but it seems on first application that it may very well be worth the added expense…

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Very strange day, I should be lower then low but I’m not…I got fired today from a job I’ve worked for 35+ years…I have no intention of going into why…other then to say I don’t agree with the reasons…I should be in the middle of a huge downer…and I actually went out and celebrated…I feel like a great weight has been lifted off my shoulders…

Fortunately I am in a position money wise where I do not have to frantically look for other employment…will take sometime…maybe look for a summer type job…and seriously look for a new job next fall…but then if things play out as they might…I may never work “fulltime” again…first shot at retirement is after all only 2+ years away…