trials of a troll trying to get by in a world messed up by humankind [ I'M AT UTC -5]

Thursday, April 10, 2008

I find myself at a seminal point, a crossroads if you will…and I’m so conflicted…trying to decide between what I think I need to do and wondering if I still have the …”heart” for it…whether the effort and the results are worth the grief…I find myself at a seminal point, a crossroads if you will…and I’m so conflicted…trying to decide between what I think I need to do and wondering if I still have the …”heart” for it…whether the effort and the results are worth the grief…

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

I am at one of those seminal points in my life, I known that I must say and do what I must do…I know that it will not be accepted…I know that once said I must leave a place that I have gotten accustomed to…a generally happy place with peeps I love…except one…I struggle with the obvious…do I man up and do what must be done…or do I put up with a situation that is becoming more then I can stand…the problem is, and this is the real point is where do I go from here…where do I find a place where my “talents” will be respected and used…I realize that the above may seem a tad arrogant…I accept that…I do have certain talents…years of study…GD given abilities that seem to be in question…do I endure or do I speak…I am at one of those seminal points in my life, I known that I must say and do what I must do…I know that it will not be accepted…I know that once said I must leave a place that I have gotten accustomed to…a generally happy place with peeps I love…except one…I struggle with the obvious…do I man up and do what must be done…or do I put up with a situation that is becoming more then I can stand…the problem is, and this is the real point is where do I go from here…where do I find a place where my “talents” will be respected and used…I realize that the above may seem a tad arrogant…I accept that…I do have certain talents…years of study…GD given abilities that seem to be in question…do I endure or do I speak…

Sunday, April 6, 2008

It seems that I am or rather has passed the time where I am relevant…I look at the current presidential candidates with an attitude of where did they come from…the thing that annoys me is I’ve never cast a positive vote in presidential elections…never in 9 going on 10…and this one will not change the deal…

The real question is am I totally weird and totally unplugged from any relevant understanding of what America needs …or are the candidates…

Remember I’m arrogant as one can be (hehe)
The worship team at my church has a standing deal, if a former member is back in the area for what ever reason and wants so sing with us on a Sunday…they sing…JW was on TD to Fort Drum for a few days and was in service with us and it was like he never left…okay not the best voice I’ve ever heard…but the dude knows to sing praise songs and how to worship…and 2 out 3 is all I need…