I am not sure of where I am right now, I need to work full 8’s until Friday, and part days the next two, and then I’m taking at least 3 vacation days…I am in a very strange place emotionally right now and need a breather…might actually go away for a couple…. the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter…

Worship team practice was a blast tonight…Jamie is back after a year deployment in Iraq…I really have to work on my harmony lines when Jamie sings as well…country/folk harmony lines he sings and the classical lines I sing just don’t always mess…and I’m the best suited to change and make it right…plus I respect him greatly…and am more then happy to adjust…

But a gently night…and I feel strangely calm and in place tonight…been a long while that that was true…

Nite all

I am getting increasingly annoyed with one co-worker…always on the attack…always blaming…never accepting the fact that they might have made a decision without asking advice from those who know…starting to drive me nuts…never admitting the possibility that maybe…just maybe the fault was theirs…I know why they are as they are and I under stand the pressure they’re under but I’m there to and not the problem… chill…

But a gentle night, and the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter…better days are coming…

Am still stiff and sore from the reunion…(see below posts)…but physically feel pretty good tonight. Am hoping to get a few days off this week…thinking about maybe taking a road trip to either the Adirondack Museum at Blue Mountain Lake…or maybe the Farmer’s Museum at Cooperstown…or just a long drive through the western Adirondacks…but if I choose the later option I’ll wait a while until the fall colors…

Dang…the alarm went off at 5:55 AM this morning…but I had to leave enough time to get what I needed to do at work and get to church for worship team warm ups at 8…voice was below par today but got her done…

Am listening to Elgar’s “Enigma Variations”…one of my all time fav pieces of music…particularly the “Nimrod Variation”…

I mentioned in the last few posts the reunion of the old gang this week end…they got together at R’s camp on the “Bay” today but I passed…I was stiff and tired after yesterday …and the early in to work today…

I still have 10.5 vacation days. + 5 personals and I intend to take a few this week…my work stress level meter is tacked…I need some down time…

(See below entry): so we were at the restaurant last night…an Italian restaurant…and they had a seafood patter, and one of their top end items…and despite the fact that the last time I was there…mark that that was 5 or so years ago I was disappointed with the entrée…I was in the mood for seafood…Shrimp, Scallops, and a crab stuffed flounder in garlic butter sauce…the Shrimp and scallops were very nice…but the crab stuffed flounder was ill seasoned and just frigging …well “off”…I came to the conclusion that they hadn’t made it fresh but had bought the pre-made thing frozen from a vendor…very disappointing…if the “fellowship” had not been good the night would have been a downer…will not darken that door again without good reasons other then food…

Been a weird weekend, got to gather with some guys I grew up with…or rather my brother grew up with but I played sports with, last night for dinner…and they were going to play street hockey today…their fav activity those many years ago…I went just to watch…but ended up playing the last two games and scoring the game winner +1 in the last game…now it’s been 25-30 years since I’ve played any street hockey…and although I maybe 58…except for R’s 20 something son everyone else was 40+…the weird thing about it was, despite the fact that everyone was obviously older, slower, fatter, and grayer…once the ball dropped…everyone acted as if time had not past at all…except for me…I couldn't help laughing my arse off at the fact that although everything had changed…nothing had changed…

The crew is getting together again tomorrow at one of the guy’s camps on Black River Bay…but I have work and church responsibilities, and I’m sure I will be stiffer and sorer then I am now, so probably will pass…but we have an email deal going so I’m sure I will be filled in…

Dang, I got little sleep last night…nothing really major bugging me…just couldn’t nod off…was in a fog all day…and a brutal day it was…glad I missed it…had a bunch of stuff I wanted to do this weekend but immediate boss is of until Monday…so must work a few on Saturday and at least an hour or so Sunday…nuts…there goes the plans for the week end…but if I can swing it will take a bunch of days off next week or the week after…

I have at least one night a week. One in seven, where the body seeks rest, seeks repose but the mind refuses that option…and tonight is that night…dang…

Dang…what a frustrating day…very busy morning…very warehouse intensive…never got to the day to day stuff until 1:30 PM with an hour and a half to go before close…not an overwhelming amount of work but orders to do, and phone calls to vendor(s) to be made…got a call which made me make a fast run back to the satellite warehouse, and when I got back with about 40 minutes before close with more then enough time to get everything done discovered we had lost our phones lines and internet access…and since our ERP software is net based…we were dead…

But a gentle, relaxing night…and I should have a better then even chance of getting even tomorrow….