Troll54 where are you ?

Sunday, March 4, 2007

I find myself in a very strange place…a very conflicted place…I am not now …nor every have been a supporter of the current war in Iraq…I have now and always thought that it was a huge mistake in judgment by our leaders…on the other hand it is very personal to me…I live just a short drive to Fort Drum…home of the 10^Th Mountain Division…I have several friends…or spouses of friends who have served in that war…peeps I love and respect…I am struggling with my need to support peeps I love and respect…while faced with the reality that what they are ordered to do…and what their families have to endure…and the fact that that I am convinced that we (as a nation) are involved in the ultimate no win scenario…I support my friends…and those that they love…but I can’t support the war…I guess that what I’m really saying is that I am at a crisis between my emotions and my logic…and can’t decide which wins…I really hate it when my humanity over powers my reason…

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About This Blog

at one time i had this blog, but decided to spin off a links blog and a poetry blog years ago ( you can find links below).........but what's left is a hodge podge of what doesn't fit in the other two....sometimes silly, sometime mundane, some times serious....so in the words of an old TV series:

"You have entered the Twilight Zone".

[Please Note: only the poetry blog still exist..so this has become a bit more of a catch all then before..and except for just references to it my online gaming is on a separate blog..links are below....

Origins

When I started blogging I needed a title for the blog, and got to thinking about an old TV sitcom "Car 54 where are you", and since I was 54 at the time, and my "good" friend BP had hung me with the nick troll...."Troll54 where are you?" was born.....he once had commented that I was the most even temper and least bigoted person he had ever met........by that he meant, I was always in a bad mood and hated everybody.......therefore I was a troll..........after beating the carp out of him, i decided that he was probably right, the beat-down was verbal, not physical, dang the kid was 8" taller then me, I may be ornery but I ain't stupid

About the same time as the blog began, I found a game called "Blogshares" ....was in beta at the time....and now rests where internet games go when they die.......I was there for the beta......and there for its' passing.......but having looked around and viewing the players' forum.......I decide I need a persona....and to avoid the stigma of "troll", out of my warped mind the "Madtrollie" was born.....complete with a bridge and an extreme hatred of noobs.......well that developed over time.....but privately.....always sent gifts.....advice.......and at times involved them in my nefarious schemes......except as the writer of this warped blog...the Madtrollie has become more or less benign in his old age.......but beware when least expected.......

Avatars

For many years online I lived behind avatars when ever a picture was asked for, first one was a budgie on a skateboard, then there was the cat with a yamaka, then it was the parrot with a yamaka and a tallith......you can still see him wandering around this blog looking for matzah.........whether I finally came to the conclusion that at least I should show my true-self, or I lost an argument with that orthodox parrot, or the simple fact that this 70+year old man finally figured out how to use the camera that is embedded in my desktop... but the bottom line is I've decided not to hid behind avatars any more...just a hoodie and a pair of shades or now a snap brim hat, shades and my neck pillow