i'm headed to bed, and try to get a little sleep or at least rest, i need to be back into work by about 2 AM, just got off at 4:30 PM, really not sleepy yet, usually don't go to bed much before 11 but if i don't get some rest i'll be shot tomorrow, have a truck that needs to be to the pier by tomorrow afternoon and it's about a 7 hour drive, i really hate doing this but one must, the last time i went in early for a load, i was there and 6 and the load never showed up til noon, (trollie mutters).......and i've got a late inbound about 4 that i need to be there for as well.......nuts.....originally i thought i had friday off as a holiday but now i've got two loads scheduled for friday......it's really been busy which is good but it's getting kind of old.......

i was really surprised this morning, despite the fall i took and the pain i got from the knee, i had no swelling and no bruise on it this morning, it's a bit tender but seems to be ok, at the time i fell i really thought i might have gone and done some serious damage to it, but seems okay now,
work was totally insane today, we've only been using the same ERP system for the last almost 5 years and yet somebody didn't check something and they had me scheduled to ship 504 rolls of a product tomorrow when i had only 360 some odd in inventory......true the system should have reflected the problem but this isn't the first time it's happened.....i think sometimes we ( and i include myself) become or have become to dependent on the machine.......(trollie runs off to practice on his slide rule)

woke up feeling really punk this morning, and the day went down hill from there, after loading a truck i was in the process of retracting the dock plate, lost my balance because it was slippery ( did i mention that it snowed again last night) and fell, and managed to land with all my weight on my left knee cap, flush on the diamond plate metal of the dock plate. ..........one of my cats is a real trip....i discovered that if you project a flashlight beam on the floor the crazy cat will chase it........what a riot.......

not a bad day all things considered, really had to fight with myself to get up this morning, with the lost hour to daylight savings, but the day went pretty well and i feel okay this PM all be it a little tired, was out for about two hours this evening and got back to find all three cats sleeping in exactly the same spots they were sleeping in when i left....ah to be a cat....the only down side is no opposable thumb.....

really great, i was in the process of running spell check and publishing the below post and i hear coughing and gagging behind me, turn to see one of my cats giving "birth" to a hairball right in the middle of my bed, wonderful.........the joys of living with cats.....

rainy, damp day, stopped into to work twice, once to put numbers in and once to check on some use rates that i had a hard time convincing myself when i heard the problem over the phone were right, they were but without running the numbers i won't have believed it, makes sense now but then i really have to check it out to believe, stop and got breakfast ot his AM, was in the mood for french toast and it's way to much hassle to make it for one...also stopped out at the golf course that i've been a member at for the last 26 years, with the turmoil swirling around me i have not yet been able to join, hopefully by the end of the month, i usually don't start playing until the end of april or beginning of may anyways, with the legs and knees not in the best of shape i don't "mud" very well, walking on wet, soggy ground tires me out, or rather my legs out before i can get around even 9, and i will not ride, i just don't enjoy the game put of a cart, i've always walked and that's the way i what to play, pro has given me some options on payment which i may take advantage of......otherwise just a quiet day, we lost a couple of orders so the 24/7 deal was cut short a week early so i don't have to go in tomorrow but with losing an hour tonight because of going to daylight savings time ( i believe it's called summer time in some parts of the world) i'll have to in effect get up at my usual time tomorrow anyway........i'm off

easy day, another half day vac but still have a ton of unused time off to burn, things are slowing down a little at work, and i feel pretty good today, still a bit in a fog emotionally but am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, the root problem is still there and will be for quite a while but at least i've made some sense of it, well that's not exactly true but i've come to the conclusion that there is no point of trying to make sense of it because there isn't any......not everything can be reduced to a logical equation, and there are somethings that it just isn't worth trying to do so.......

i have had a very strange day, emotionally i have been on a roller coaster most of the day, i feel like i'm trapped in a very bad b movie without either an exit, the script or a tub of popcorn.....i don't know whether to laugh, cry or barf.......anyhow i'm feeling a little more on even keel tonight, so many things pulling in opposite directions.......but i think that i'm beginning to find a center and when i do all will be well......at least for a moment and that is really all one can expect.....yes and i know i've revealed nothing of the substance of what ails me, but that too is the nature of the troll....i've never really had the ability to really share inner self with more then just a few....very few.....almost none......(/rambling)