i have had a very strange day, emotionally i have been on a roller coaster most of the day, i feel like i'm trapped in a very bad b movie without either an exit, the script or a tub of popcorn.....i don't know whether to laugh, cry or barf.......anyhow i'm feeling a little more on even keel tonight, so many things pulling in opposite directions.......but i think that i'm beginning to find a center and when i do all will be well......at least for a moment and that is really all one can expect.....yes and i know i've revealed nothing of the substance of what ails me, but that too is the nature of the troll....i've never really had the ability to really share inner self with more then just a few....very few.....almost none......(/rambling)