Troll54 where are you ?

Thursday, April 10, 2008

I find myself at a seminal point, a crossroads if you will…and I’m so conflicted…trying to decide between what I think I need to do and wondering if I still have the …”heart” for it…whether the effort and the results are worth the grief…I find myself at a seminal point, a crossroads if you will…and I’m so conflicted…trying to decide between what I think I need to do and wondering if I still have the …”heart” for it…whether the effort and the results are worth the grief…

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About This Blog

at one time i had this blog, but decided to spin off a links blog and a poetry blog years ago ( you can find links below).........but what's left is a hodge podge of what doesn't fit in the other two....sometimes silly, sometime mundane, some times serious....so in the words of an old TV series:

"You have entered the Twilight Zone".

[Please Note: only the poetry blog still exist..so this has become a bit more of a catch all then before..and except for just references to it my online gaming is on a separate blog..links are below....

Origins

When I started blogging I needed a title for the blog, and got to thinking about an old TV sitcom "Car 54 where are you", and since I was 54 at the time, and my "good" friend BP had hung me with the nick troll...."Troll54 where are you?" was born.....he once had commented that I was the most even temper and least bigoted person he had ever met........by that he meant, I was always in a bad mood and hated everybody.......therefore I was a troll..........after beating the carp out of him, i decided that he was probably right, the beat-down was verbal, not physical, dang the kid was 8" taller then me, I may be ornery but I ain't stupid

About the same time as the blog began, I found a game called "Blogshares" ....was in beta at the time....and now rests where internet games go when they die.......I was there for the beta......and there for its' passing.......but having looked around and viewing the players' forum.......I decide I need a persona....and to avoid the stigma of "troll", out of my warped mind the "Madtrollie" was born.....complete with a bridge and an extreme hatred of noobs.......well that developed over time.....but privately.....always sent gifts.....advice.......and at times involved them in my nefarious schemes......except as the writer of this warped blog...the Madtrollie has become more or less benign in his old age.......but beware when least expected.......

Avatars

For many years online I lived behind avatars when ever a picture was asked for, first one was a budgie on a skateboard, then there was the cat with a yamaka, then it was the parrot with a yamaka and a tallith......you can still see him wandering around this blog looking for matzah.........whether I finally came to the conclusion that at least I should show my true-self, or I lost an argument with that orthodox parrot, or the simple fact that this 70+year old man finally figured out how to use the camera that is embedded in my desktop... but the bottom line is I've decided not to hid behind avatars any more...just a hoodie and a pair of shades or now a snap brim hat, shades and my neck pillow