trials of a troll trying to get by in a world messed up by humankind [ I'M AT UTC -5]

Saturday, March 17, 2007

I am reminding of the quote from “The Tale of Two Cities”…”it was the best of times and the worst of times”…that pretty much sums up my day…I struggled all day with my familial tremors…and a basically boring day…but a nice meal of corned beef, cabbage and potatoes at my daughter’s and nice conversation…while my genetic roots are light years from Irish…I love the tradition Irish boiled dinner…

Thursday, March 15, 2007

A long phone call tonight with a dear old friend…well maybe I should not say old …but rather that I have know this peep for like 20+ years…the peep was concerned about me but truth be told I’m more concerned about my peep…my thoughts and prayers are with my friend…nuff said…

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

It is what it is…and I accept that…it isn’t what I would have chosen…but then when do you really get to choose…oh I could make a valid argument that we do get to choose…but it seems like I never have a choice between what’s best for me and what isn’t…but rather the choice always seems to be the lesser of a selections of what’s least bad…ok so I’m a pessimist…or maybe a realist…or maybe it’s just that I seem to always be offered the dirty end of the stick…

To the two old friends who called today to see how I was holding up a special thank you…and to the one who requested that I keep them in my thoughts and prayers you’re there…

Life is a funny thing…it is a balance between many variables…

Today for example I was physically pretty low…but on other levels a great day…

Tuesday is my fav day of the week…for it is the day of worship team practice…I get to hang out for a while with a great bunch of peeps and make music…music is what keeps me “centered”…it is where I run to when everything else in my life is out of balance…

Monday, March 12, 2007

Today was one of those low physically days that as a youth I never anticipated…we think as a young person we will always feel …alive and ready for anything…there is no way as a youth we can anticipate being old…

To those who expect me to in some way to “go off” about what has occurred of late…please stop coming here…your presence annoys me and you will not get the pleasure you seek…

Did I make an error in judgment…no dah?

But in retrospect was it a positive…absolutely…

The weight of the world has been lifted…and I’m okay

So just go away…and leave me alone

(NOTE: to those who have come here by chance ignore the above…it’s for those who think that I am at low ebb and have never or could never understand who and what I am)

I have had over the last 20+ years 6 cats …anyone who has ever read this slag heap knows I love my cats… 4 of the 6 are no more…all of the 6 are indoor cats…de-clawed and spade females…3 of the 4 have died of cancer…drives me nuts…I wish that all of them would have been at my funeral

I have a whole litany of things to say tonight, well actually this morning so this may very well turn into a novella…

Has been warm the last two days…not warm mind you mid summer warm but warm for early March and the huge snow banks that have obscured visibility when driving and the mess that was my drive way have been greatly improved…

I’m a little peeved that the ‘Cuse did not make the NCAA’s but I half expected it…I thought they really needed to go one round deeper in the conference championships then they did…and despite a good seed in the NIT’s their history in the “also rans” tournament is not good…

Been a mixed bag sort of day …some highs…some lows…and a whole bunch of neutrals…

Saw my genius nephew today…and of all of my nieces and nephews…and grand nieces and nephews he is the one that I connect with the most…he is like 20 or 21 and is getting his masters in computer science from RPI this spring …and has accepted a job offer from Google which he will start in May…although I truly expect that he will eventually succumb to fate and my predictions for him and end of getting his PhD. And ending up in academia…the only reason he won’t is just to prove me wrong…

I have made an interesting observation about cats…I have shared my existence over the last 20+ some odd years with 6 of those little fur balls…2 remain…they seem to live (unlike dogs who come when they are called)…totally by their own needs, desires, whims…they come when called only if it fits in with their own agenda…but I love them just the same…

Well I bit short of a novella…but nite all