trials of a troll trying to get by in a world messed up by humankind [ I'M AT UTC -5]

Wednesday, October 4, 2006

I got to admit that the attack and killing of completely innocent girls in a one room Amish school house has really enraged me…I frankly hope that that dude burns in a particularly nasty part of hell…

I am very tired and need a few days off…have a bunch of vacation/personal days to take…the problem is having days I can take them…inventory was a disaster…when the high mucks get back from their trip I am sure that they will be highly annoyed at the decision(s) of the independent auditors…and I suspect that after 25+ years that’s the last time I will work with that firm of auditors on the audit…. mind you I’m not taking sides here…

I have a monster head cold, and my hearing…which ain’t great on my best day is effected…

I have a problem…oh sorry I have an issue…and I really don’t know how to handle it diplomatically…I am disturbed greatly by the actions and choice of actions by someone I deal with in an avocation situation…but I don’t have the words to approach the issue…

I am not in a good space tonight…frankly on virtually ever level I am at low ebb…I will recover…I must…and always do…my life swings as the pendulum do…A good and old friend’s mother died and unfortunately calling were at a time that I was unable to attend…must give them a “hug” and sorry I was unable to attend asap…

Monday, October 2, 2006

It has been an exhausting 4 days, 31 hours at work between Friday, Saturday and today…and a typical busy fall Sunday between my commitment to church and 2+ hours at a choral rehearsal…audit of inventory could have gone very well if my clerk hadn’t made a silly mistake…no forgive…that is unfair…he just made a common, and understandable mistake at the absolute worst time to do so…cost me the better part of an hour…I knew exactly what he had done in 2 seconds but had to prove to the independent audit what had happened…

I have to work tomorrow…many loose ends to tie together…but then I will try to get a few days off at week’s end…I need to get away for a bit…

It has been a very rough 3 days…between Friday and Saturday I was at work for 21 and ½ hours working on year-end inventory…originally had given my clerk Monday off…but have called him in because I got a bunch of things that must be quarantined before the auditors get here tomorrow as they are sold but not shipped…

This week end was twice tough`…as it fell on the first day(s) of October…I spent 2.75 hours at church today, between worship teams for both services and as this was communion Sunday…I never got away until approaching noon…decided to check out the Ponderosa brunch…was less then impressed…had the first rehearsal for the Christmas concert for North Country Choral…so has been a long day…after two other long days…and I am physically beat down…but mentally my mind is in a whirl…

Speaking of NCC…only two of the “old hands” in the tenor section are back…we have like 8 in the section but 5 of those are n00bs…nice voices but not sure how the mix is…I personally struggled today…was stuffed up and really struggled with pitch…and breath control….

Sunday, October 1, 2006

Okay so sue me, it’s been several days since I posted last, but this has been year end inventory week…between Friday and today I have had an absolutely “trilling” 21.5 hours at work…I am as my job requires…the main floor dude when inventory is concerned…plus that we have a new upstairs dudette who I had to instruct in the use of the distribution software as it pertains to inventory…a quick learner…but…count to it that marketing and the CEO had dollar values that must be reached by year end and the last 2 days have been a total nightmare…and I still have a bunch of stuff I must quarantine before I deal with the auditors Monday… that is a terror that I alone must deal with…originally I had given my clerk a long weekend but as forced to call him in on Monday to help me deal with what needless crap (IMHO) marketing has forced on me…I understand their focus…but give me a break…

Tomorrow is communion Sunday at church…and from a worship team perspective I’m ready stoked…I love the songs we do for communion…allows me to expand on two planes…both musically and worship wise…neat stuff…the songs we sing allows me to test my complete range musically…and my range as a worship leader…

Tomorrow is the day I have longed for the last nine months…first rehearsal for the fall season of North Country Choral…. as much as I need and enjoy Worship Team at my local church…I love singing with the local choral group…and it’s probably less about the music…and more about the people I get to sing and perform with…I have been performing both vocally and instrumentally for 53+ years at this point…was 5 when I first performed musically in public…it is the center…of what I am…music is who I am…where I run to for relief…for understanding…for comfort…take music away from me and I frankly think I would cease to exist…and if you try to understand who I am and where I’m going and refuse to accept that I am foremost about music you will never get what I am about…