I really must re-evaluate my take out food tactics…I stopped at the deep fry fish place tonight…got a ½ pound of deep fried haddock…12 ozs. of fries and a ½ pound of slaw, and a large can of orange aid for about what a burger and fries with a diet and a side would cost me at a fast food place…why do I stop for fast food when not-quite so fast food is better and really doesn’t take that much longer…and is as cost effective as the inferior “slop”.

Tonight was worship team practice which I skipped for the first time in months…voice was rocky and was just too tired to contemplate going back out…slept lousy last night…work today was the pits and that’s all I’ll say…

Dang what a day, I got a visit this morning from the mechanic from the vendor we use for forklift repair and maintenance. Finally got management permission for a new set of tires and a bunch of upgrades and standard maintenance to the warehouse lift…this sucker is a ‘74 or ‘75 era lift with literally 1000’s of hours on it…still is mechanically sound but needs new rubber and some work on the horn and backup alarm…now this will basically take it out of service for an entire day…so I checked with everyone and nothing was scheduled for Wednesday, and as the mechanic had to schedule some sub-vendors to assist…we set the day…I told everyone , ok it’s Wednesday…don’t schedule anything from the warehouse that needs the lift for that day. A brief note, as we only have 3 lifts…it is not cost effective to have a certified forklift mechanic on staff (OSHA requires all work on a lift be done by a certified mechanic)…better from many angles to outsource it. So like three hours later I get a call from customer service/marketing…the trucking company wants to pickup the Nogales load Wednesday…hold the phone we already decided we were going to not ship from the house Wednesday…yeah I now that a full load to Nogales this time of year is a hard thing to find but just who’s the customer here…she didn’t even say to them we can’t so it that day can you reschedule for another day…she drives me nuts… if a customer or vendor wants to change a plan or a ship day she just folds…never considers that I have made other plans…even when she knows I have…so I’m trying to re-schedule for Thursday…hope that works and if she tries to move something in on top of me again there is going to be hell to pay…the hardest thing about what I do is that everyone thinks all I have to do in a given day is what they as an individual needs me to do…well about a hour after that I got a very ill worded and very insulting memo from the foundation ( well it would be if I could be insulted which I can’t but it did p*ss me off) about why I hadn’t processed their overseas sample requests…they live in a vacuum…no idea of my work load or how busy we’ve been…I called the executive assistant, hey look I’ve tried 3 different times over the last week and a half to get to these things…about an hours work…and every time I’ve tried I got interrupted by something that needed to be done right now…I think I will be able to get the hour I need today…which I did…and then went up and they had sent another request over… now if the dang things are so important…why didn’t she mention there was another one in the pipe line…and 95% of these samples they send result in nothing…squat…zilch…nodda…as far as orders…dang!!!!!!!!!!
Got behind…caught up except I had a transfer that needed to be unloaded and then reloaded at the warehouse…and left work an hour late…in a foul mood…chores can wait for another day…and as I had taken an early lunch and was too hungry to wait until I had time to cook and in no mood to accomplish said cooking got take out…which amounts to 40% of the meals I’ve eaten in the last week…weeks go by without me ever getting takeout…but lately…oh double dang…

Day two of the current cold…and something happened today that has rarely happened to me in almost 53 years of singing in public…first service and warm-ups before voice was fine…a little rusty up high, but no problem on the lower harmony lines…got through teaching adult Christian Ed. Class and voice was fine in second service to a point…we got to the last chorus of the last song and voice just…well…quit…I tried to sing and all I got was a coughing fit…dang…in 53 years of singing…I have never had that happen during a service or a performance…rehearsals maybe…and I few times I have passed on the performance/service because there just wasn’t any “voice” there…fortunately it was a group deal…and I am a harmony singer…one might call me a “backup” singer…so no big deal…but it is humbling…
Anyhow the N-lady did a solo in service…actually both services to day…we’re buds…she’s been singing with the team for over a year now…nice voice…a bit of a country twang…but I forgive her for that (hehe)…but has never done a solo before…4 kids and in her early 40’s but has never sung alone in public before…she started out in first service a little timid…breathed a quick pray for that sweet lady…but as she got into the music she did fine…better then fine…but I took her aside between services and told her a secret…I’ve been singing in public since 5 years old…and despite the fact that after all that time you would think that I had conquered any nervousness or “stage fright”…well think again…when I sing with the local classical choral society I pace for an hour before a concert trying to get my nerviness and maybe anticipation in check…once the music starts…once I hit that first high note…or “nail” the first hard “run”…I’m fine…but that feeling before hand…I always have…and the few times I haven’t…lord have I made a mess of it…that pre-performance jitters is just part of the deal…and you learn to live with it and do the thing regardless…
Have veggied out the rest of the day…just haven’t been hungry today…I guess it belittles the old wives tale about “feed a cold and stave a fever”…because I have had no taste for food today…a late lunch of coffee and a salad…and coffee and a jumbo English muffin with peanut butter and orange marmalade for supper…
Peanut butter is one of those weird things that you never leave childhood with…almost everyone I know that still eats that childhood staple almost invariably buys and consumes the same brand their mom bought for them as a child…

Nite all

sorry i used a strange word in the post below

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We’ve been talking about dogs on #blogshares tonight and it forces me reluctantly to remember Taffy…half golden retriever, half boarder collie, she at about 7 years old got epilepsy…and as I couldn’t find anyone to take her was forced to put her “down”, an action I have always regretted, but as I had a 4 year old daughter at the time and that the affliction had caused a change in temperament, a mean streak had developed I had no choice…a choice I regret…I choice I wish I hadn’t had to make, but there you are…

When we got her from the ASPCA she was a pup, short haired and small, what we didn’t know was that she had a skin worm and when cured she ended up long haired and 110 pounds…of crazy dog…you didn’t walk that dog…you ran that dog…but she loved my kid…until the epilepsy invaded her body and her personality…

When the daughter was outside with the dog, no force on earth could harm her (that is the daughter)…the dog watched over her like the boarder collie in her would have watched over the flock…if anyone came within 100 yards of the yard there were the 3 barks to alert us of the fact, daughter was shepherded to the front stoop and the dog followed the person on the sidewalk as they pasted the house and GD help them if they put a foot on the front yard…when left alone for 8 hours one time the dog ate a pillow chair I had…ah well…the dog loved my mom…it was cupboard love… but love none the less…mom would always bring it a knuckle bone or some other variety of beef bone …and the dog loved her…if my mom was coming all we had to say to the dog was “ grandma is coming” and the dang dog would run window to window until mom arrived…and then would get so excited that it would piddle on the floor…the 5 of us, dad, mom, wife, child and I would be playing cards…well the kid at that age would be on one of our laps kibitzing…and the dang dog would have it’s head in my mom’s lap the whole time…

Dang…why did I think about that tonight… I miss my mom…she’s been gone the last 7+ years…and I miss her…she had a stroke…a massive one….but hung on for several months…died just short of Christmas, just short of her 81^st birthday (she was a new years baby)…dang…I miss that dear sweet lady…she loved a white Christmas…and we hadn’t had any snow to speak of, and the day she died it snowed to beat the band …in fact as I was trying to finish the few things I really needed to do at work after finding out about her passing I skidded the company SUV into a curb and destroyed the rim on one of the wheels…(dang…that’s the first time I’ve even remembered that in over 7 years)

The weird part of the whole deal was we had the services and calling hours the day after Christmas…one of my bud’s as he passed the receiving line said to me “Bud (the name I’m know by in the real world) don’t be surprised if A doesn’t come to your mom’s calling hours (I’ve know A for years through war gaming)…they found his dad dead of heart attack Christmas morning…oh hell…one of the hardest things I have ever done was to go to the calling hours of friend A’s father, the next day after my mom’s calling hours…with the same funeral home doing the arrangements…as I walked into the home ( we had the complete calling hours and services at the home church) the staff at the home just looked at me and I could see the honest pity in their eyes( as in what the hell are you doing here…friend A’s dad died 3 days after my mom…I rather be any other place in the world but…)…like what are you doing here…the weird thing is that the fellow who told me about A that is the Big R…I’ve know the R-man since I’ve moved to Watertown almost 40 years ago and I had just been to his dad’s calling hours 2 weeks before…2 weeks in my life I’d rather not repeat…but the A-man…as I shook his hand and gave my regrets broken down…he said…”B I’m so sorry I wasn’t there for you yesterday but I wasn’t in my right mind” I said “ don’t worry about it man, we knew it was coming for 6 months, you had no idea that your dad was even sick, I understand”…

Nite all

I had the best night’s sleep I’ve had in months last night, 8+ hours without any wakeups at all, so I should have been hitting the ground ready for anything this AM, forget about it, the cold I’ve been trying to get for the last month, I finally got…needed to make an appearance at work but not at any particular time…so 9:30 AM it was…but fighting the first day of a cold did the absolute minimum necessary to get month end done Monday AM…got take out for lunch…veggied this afternoon…a quick garlic pizza for supper, and maybe I’ll feel like doing my chores tomorrow…nothing absolutely needs to be done…

The T-man at work has discovered stronghold crusader which I’ve been playing for 2+ years…bunches of questions…one I couldn’t answer…so started playing this afternoon…to see if I could figure out the answer…figured it out in about the first 45 minutes and played about 6 hours anyways…now I come from a miniature war game background…pushing little lead men across a board…stronghold crusader is the only real time, tactic level PC game I play…neat game…

Have been hangin’ out on #blogshares and the blogshares forum tonight…I’ve played the game blogshares for nearly 3 years now, but as of late the community around the game is more important then the game itself…

End of month Fridays are nightmares, or rather have the potential to be nightmares…and usually fulfill their potential. Well this one was far worse then that…not only would it have been extremely busy under normal circumstances, but because we are in the middle of a change over in the ERP software we’re using, we are still running both packages as mirrors of each other, so everything has to be done in both system…what a pain in the …well…oh my…neck (hehe). And I made a clerical error and never got out until almost an hour late…got a sub and said forget the chores and errands planned for tonight…tomorrow is another day. Have to put in maybe 3 hours tomorrow but have an 8AM to 2:30 PM window to do it in so the alarm stays off tomorrow morning…

Today went ½ way decent, but to more being an end of month Friday is stacking up to be weird…well when I opened my AT&T bill tonight I discovered why my check book didn’t balance with the bank statement…apparently check lost in the mail…nuts…I hate late fees when it’s my fault but when I get one when it isn’t ………argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…

Anyways did banking, what few errands I needed to run and paid all my bills currently due…and am a bit ahead…won’t last long probably but then you never know…have spent a quiet night with my cats…a nice night…check that, did get one telemarketer type call…but other then that…no wolves at the doorstep tonight…nite all

While perusing my dashboard when preparing to post the preceding I noticed that I am 87, and after this 86 posts from the 2000 post mark…have been blogging since October of ’02…actually I’m surprised this blog has lasted that long…usually I get bored with everything after awhile…or at least slack off…also past 6000 hits this morning on my sitemeter…only counter I have that allows me to filter out my own “hits”…okay I know 6000 in 3+ years is pathetic…but then the musings and ramblings of a 58 year old man who lives alone with his 3 cats…now that’s pathetic (hehe)

We got some snow today, which is kind of nice, seeing how it winter, and what we’ve had for the most part in high 30’s and rain…very dreary…very hard on the old trollie’s arthritis…

Work was a freak show, and with Friday being an “end of the month Friday”…things will probably get worse. Okay so Friday is only the 27^th but it’s the last business (reading shipping day) in the fiscal month…and everyone panics …and as I have got at least one and I fear two full truck loads to load, + and inbound…not a whole lot else is liable to get done…which has in the past lead to some rather heated conversations…rats…

Was lazy tonight so stopped at the take out seafood place…got a nice piece of deep fried haddock, an order of fries and ½ pound of potato salad w/egg. Probably tonight’s supper, a lunch tomorrow and a late night snack to be arranged…and all for under $10…

Have been in a very distracted mood tonight…nothing…not even mythbusters seems to be able to hold my attention and it’s a new episode…

(Note: typing seems to be one of those other things tonight…thank GD for spell check)

I’ve been feeling very tired of late, just too heavy of a load for the old trollie and haven’t had the opportunity to get any days away…am trying to schedule some time next month to take a few days and just get some down time…might decide to go away for a few days but will have to check the check book for that…

I really can’t believe it, about 3+ years ago the IT guy at work, in a very off-handed way mentioned blogging to me…well I checked out blogger…what the heck…looked like a neat thing to divert my time…in the beginning I played constantly with my template…added a bunch of bells and whistles…all of those are gone…but the blog lives…and in the next 2 or 3 months the 2000^th post will be written…I might issue a stamp, a coin or just bay at the moon…

Not a bad day as days go, I had a rough time deciding to get out of bed this AM, and a rough early part of the day physically…but not a bad day as days go when you have a physically and mentally demanding job and are 58+ years old…have lost about 15 pounds since the turn of the year…weight has gotten a little away from me and I need to get back down to about 190 lbs., probably not a target weight for me in any doctors point of view, but with the physical, strength effort my job requires, a decent target weight…about 20+ pounds to go…

I spent most of the night watching a little tube…I almost never watch any tube without at least two cats… cat aggie (huge bodied cat at circa 20 lbs.) and the ancient (almost 16 years old jenny, at maybe 9 pounds)…fight it out for my lap…and the older J-ster usually wins out…but avoiding the wars and resting on the top of the recliner, is the extremely small bodied lilly…when I got her some 3 or 4 years ago she was about 1 and ½ years old and weighted in at 28 oz. Obviously under fed and mal treated…I really hate people who would take out their frustrations on the wee creatures…especially cats…she now weights in at a awesome 4 and ½ pounds…but if in the mood kicks the arse of her older and heavier mates…is my constant friend…on the top of the recliner…

Not a bad day, not a good day, just a day, a workday…dang. Change over seems to be going ok to the new computer system, web based instead of local server, and a step up to the newer version of the software…several steps up actually…I don’t like the newer version as of yet…it seems to me a bit twitchy…and a bit slower then the older version…whether that’s the change to net based, or the fact that it just isn’t the older version, or it actually is a bit twitchy…time will tell…a solid 4 and ½ hours taken out of the middle of the day with 2 out bounds…#1 took way longer then I would have like, but a split load and way more strip time then I had anticipated…load #2 should have been a “see spot run load”, one location…every thing a short run…but didn’t turn out that way…an ESL driver ( sorry English as a second language) and the barriers that that will often bring to communication, also a driver who insisted at “looking over my shoulder” as I loaded. I really hate that…I’ve loaded over the last 25+ years 1000’s of trucks and probably more then half of the refrigerated trailers…I am well aware of the California bridge laws…I know how to load a trailer so it will scale, and I am aware that you have to “pull it” and you get the fine if it’s loaded wrong but sit in the truck and let me do the job…it will be okay…

20+ years ago you could load 45000 pounds on an over the road trailer and there was no problem…but with the move to 53’ trailers and the rolling apartment sized tractors…43000 is about max…particularly for a refrier…

But when I told the driver this load might reach 42000 he had a problem…d*mn the broker we deal with…they know our loads might approach 43000, they are instructed not to send a truck that can’t take that weight…but they constantly send us truckers who don’t want to haul max weight…traffic doesn’t give two sh*ts because they don’t have to deal one to one with the drivers…well this one came in just over 41000, driver said I’m going to scale and I might be back…h*ll I knew he’d be okay…I may not be able to create world peace, I may not be able to understand the secrets of the universe…but I can load a 48 or 53 foot trailer within 1000 pounds of gross and give the driver if he has an ounce of ability the ability to scale the axles…h*ll just go up or down a couple of notches son…

A bit of Mac and cheese for supper…not really hungry…still over tired…still hoping for some time off…I need a few down days to get back to par but…

My responsibilities at church went find…despite the fact that I was still overtired…I was still in a bad place physically…services went fine…had nothing to do where I was…but if I do what GD requires of me…in the way it is required it works despite my inabilities…

A waste day otherwise…nite all

It's late, I should have been in bed hours ago…but the mind is still whirling…a nasty day… a down day…a brief appearance at work…a little take out for lunch…a simple for dinner…if shallots and a good imported Italian salami can be involved in simple…and more good brandy then I should have indulged in…nite all

In the aftermath of yesterday’s very demanding requirements of me, physically, predictably, I have been at low ebb physically all day…fortunately an easy day…but I just was too tried to cook and got take out for the 2^nd night in a row…I never do that…have to make an appearance at work tomorrow, but it’s a “when I get there” thing…no alarm tonight…when I wake up…if I wake up (hehe)…then I’ll go in…

Although all I wanted to do was go home I did have one errand that needed running…when I was out on the Westside last night I forgot to stop at farm tractor and get cat food…well this morning I put out the last of the special dry I feed, I have some left of the indoor cat formula…but the adult blend that helps with urinary tract infections I was out of…and one of three is prone to that problem…so…

Workday was an absolute monster, I got 6 hours of help from assorted fellows and barely got every thing done that needed to be done…and I am ripped up, messed up and total gone tonight…a day I will try to forget but probably will re-occur in nightmares for the rest of my natural life (wait a minute as a trollie that’s probably unnatural life…oh h*ll)…

Cashed the check, did I few errands and as I have no bills that are hounding me will deal with the payments, tomorrow…or the day after…or maybe next pay day…I have the money…but screw those who I owe…I’m not in the mood…

Dang…dang…double dang…apparently a mistake was made when loading the new upgrade to the software that is being switched to a web-based system…we had to load the last 4 days into the old system and do a reload on the change over…2 hours work for nuthin’…and then we have to take another shot this weekend and early next week…@#$%)&&^

It took me almost 3 hours to load the outbound today, if you count the ½ hour of manual paperwork, because I couldn’t do it in the system (maybe 5 minutes of system time…and all the other hassles of the load…one of which was the driver had to re-spot the truck at the warehouse because he forgot to open the swing doors before he was against the dock…$@!###)(***

I am way behind and have a whole page of orders to deal with tomorrow…+ a transfer that should have been loaded today…++++++…dang

So when I got the green light to start entering into the current system I had probably 2 hours of accumulated work to enter…I had no more gotten started then one of the customer service reps started emailing me that he/she needed me to do “X”…dang…I emailed back…dang…well not really but…I’m not through step one yet…I’ll get to your request when I can…to add a certain element of the surreal…I got an order from the foundation late yesterday…a call this AM that the order was changed…and then at 1PM when I had time to pickup my mail the new order saying that it must arrive by 1/23….well it’s 1/18 and 1/21 and 1/22 are the weekend….holy………………………..moses…fortunately production had it mostly done and I did manage to get it out today so it’s got a 4 in 5 chance of getting there on time…but the “MAN” the head of the foundation that I have either work for or semi-worked for, for going on 38 years waits until the last minute on everything and then expects me to pull the proverbial rabbit out of the proverbial hat…and I have about a 99% success record…but dang…

Just a very quick but lovely 3-cheese pizza for supper (fresh mozzarella, sharp cheddar and fresh romano…evoo, garlic, a bit of dry Italian salami, and Spanish capers…and a piece left for lunch tomorrow…and a fine arabica coffee…

What a messed up day, overslept and was almost late for work, and with the nightmare the day turned into I should have overslept until quitting time…

Peaceful night though…a little boiled dinner for dinner…worship team rehearsal went well…and just hangin’ out now…but I see a heavy day on the horizon…(trollie digs himself a hole, crawls in, and pulls the dirt in on time of him…)

Nite all

It’s been a weird day, I have had an ugly day in many aspects…I took a very nasty fall today…a very cold day which got my arthritis flaring… and a less then enjoyable work day…but despite the down side it’s been a decent day…I’m too tired and physically out of it but I feel decent. A nice supper…details tomorrow….maybe…with all the crap…relatively a good day

Been an interesting day…cold this morning only 5*F as opposed to a 50*F+ day just two days ago…dang winter in the northcountry can be weird…worship team in first service went…well decent…voice still hadn’t recovered from the night’s sleep…lets face it singing at 8:30 AM should be a thing a 58 year old man should avoid…Christian Ed. Class went great…and second service worship team went very well despite the fact that at the last minute we subbed in our “2^nd string” bass player…his mom does the lead treble vocals…

Daughter had called earlier in the week, hubby was going to be gone today and wondered if we could “do lunch”…like I’m going to refuse…ended up at a local eatery called the Partridge Berry Inn…I have eaten there numerous times…but never off the menu…I have been there for several vendor/church catered events…and several times for the Sunday Brunch…but never off the menu…the brunch as always was wonderful…fresh salads…traditional breakfast fare...seafood…et al…but I crashed out this afternoon…ate way too richly for brunch…although the daughter must have been in worse shape then 1…they had mussels steamed in a wine broth…she must have had 50+ of those succulent little devils…even as a kid…5 or 6 years old mussels have always been her absolute fav shellfish…but was a lovely time…good food…forget that…great food…and great company…she’s applied for a new job…she teaches and her current job has turned into a problem…not the kids but the admin., and the board of ed….she’s applied to a closer school…and a larger district…hope it works out for her…she has had a rough year on many fronts…and she deserves better…

Watched the movie “Van Helsing” today…okay so pure “camp”…but the visuals were amazing…but I hate the ending…I had hope that the male and female leads would ride off into the sunset (okay so I’m an incurable romantic)…but they kill the female lead off…what a bunch of sh*t…I really hate the macho flick were the male survives the finally encounter with “evil” but the lady is destroyed…bullsh*t…

Shocked as h*ll that Pittsburgh beat Indy in the playoffs…the T-man at work who is a diehard Steelers fan has got to be flying high…watched the “Cuse beat Cinncy in big east b-ball…G-Mac had an off the wall game…I’ve followed the ‘Cuse for years…first of all it’s the closed DI b-ball program…and secondly my daughter is an alum..

Nite All

Today was a weird day, I needed to put in a couple of hours at work, but when I did it wasn’t a big deal. I had told the T-man that I would be in but not to look for me at the typical 8AM. Now I don’t work for T but since he is in charge on Saturday he should know when I will be about, if I know. Well anywho I never went to bed until after 2 AM last night (got involved on an IRC channel) and never rolled out of bed until a tad after 9 AM. But still managed to get in by 9:30…and out by noon…a little take out…a couple of household chores…and just hung out the rest of the day…made some sloppy joes for dinner…well not typical because I used ground veal…but very…very nice…lunch with the daughter tomorrow…nite all…

My computer is fighting me tonight…gd I hate ME…I’ve used XP and am not really in love with it but at least it’s more stable then ME…

What a strange winter this has been so far. It was in the +mid 50’sF today…felt like spring…although spring is still a good 2+ months away…work actually went pretty well today, although I do need to put in a little time tomorrow….plan to kick back the rest of the day tomorrow…having lunch with the daughter Sunday so that should be fun…

Today was an insane day at work and tomorrow promises to be worse…cashed my check…paid some bills….a little shopping…a little take out…a little tube…and now to bed

What a strange day, it’s mid January in Watertown and it was like 47*F…. that’s like 60* warmer then normal…ok so global warming may not be a myth……weird day on blogshares…a neat day….maybe the problem has finally met his/her match…nite all

I didn’t post last night, my mind was AWOL…and although I feel pretty good today I’m involved else where tonight…you’re in luck…no drivel from the trollie tonight…

Worship team starts up again tomorrow AM…so Saturday…if I can finagle a Saturday off is the only day of the week I can sleep without fear of the alarm clock…and I managed the afore mention task today…with little positive result…while physically I feel pretty good today…I am in a very bad place mentally…emotionally…especially over the last few hours…I am not dealing very well with the demons that infect my sense of well being…I will over come…I always do…but tonight …right now…the forces for which I have no answer are in the fore front…and although I will eventually win the day…or the hour or the minute…but right now I’m in a very bad place…

I was just watching “$40 dollars a day” w/Rachael Raye on the food network…of the shows she does this series is my fav…and although I’ve seen this particular one before, it’s my fav of all of that series…she spends the day in her home town which is Lake George, NY…which is maybe 2 and a half or 3 hours from where I have lived the last 39+ years. Now Lake George is in the eastern Adirondacks…and I live less then an hour from the western edge of that monster NY state park…one of my favorite spots on the planet is the Adirondack Museum @ Blue Mountain Lake…if you wander over on the right there and click on the link to “troll’s attic” you’ll find pics of said museum…also they have an off the wall cafeteria which is one of my two or three favorite places to eat…fresh deli sandwiches, awesome salads, and hardy soups…

Work day went surprisingly good for a Friday, and I finagled tomorrow off…as worship team is going back into the services as of this Sunday…Saturday is the only day I can actually sleep in…and I need a day bad…this has been a bad week physically…except for today that is…today I felt fine physically but started the day in a bad place emotionally…a return of the strange and disturbing dreams last night…but feel pretty good and pretty “balanced” right now…

Okay so call me stupid…I actually stayed up to watch the end of the rose bowl game…and I really don’t like college football…I wish some one could explain that to me…not my dislike of college football but why the heck I stayed up that late…

Well had a really bad physical day all day at work…nasty…fortunately wasn’t really busy…but feel really pretty good right now, did weekly grocery shopping…got a nice boneless chuck roast…that quickly became a late supper…did some household chores and have just hung out tonight…heck that’s basically every night…

I failed to post last night, a rare occurrence, but I felt physically like crap all day…work wasn’t that bad but I decided to go to rehearsal. I felt lousy but since we have been on hiatus for the last several weeks I felt I really had to go to the first rehearsal back…big mistake…crashed out after rehearsal and didn’t first like posting…

Work today was way beyond work…torture would be closer to the truth…slept well last night and really didn’t feel bad going in this AM but was blown out by quitting time… just a salad for supper and a little channel surfing tonight a little tube….”White Palace” kind of a quickie flick…but I like it…have been wearing out my VCR copy of Midway…not exactly complete or 100% accurate but one of my favorite flicks…

I have had a lousy day, a nasty day, one of those days that you would never chose to have…but I have survived…I have endured…and I would suggested that you neither debate or comment to this post because anyone stupid enough to contend with the trollie tonight deserves what they get

I have had a decent day, a reasonably good day…the second of three days off…but in no mood to consider or write about it…nite all