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Saturday, January 28, 2006

sorry i used a strange word in the post below

kibitz

One entry found for kibitz.

Main Entry: ki·bitz
Variant(s): also kib·bitz /'ki-b&ts, k&-'bits/
Function: verb
Etymology: Yiddish kibetsn
intransitive senses : to act as a kibitzer
transitive senses : to observe as a kibitzer; especially : to be a kibitzer at <kibitz a card game>

(above qoute from here...dang i hate it when i forget to give credit to a source...blame it on the Early Times bourbon)

We’ve been talking about dogs on #blogshares tonight and it forces me reluctantly to remember Taffy…half golden retriever, half boarder collie, she at about 7 years old got epilepsy…and as I couldn’t find anyone to take her was forced to put her “down”, an action I have always regretted, but as I had a 4 year old daughter at the time and that the affliction had caused a change in temperament, a mean streak had developed I had no choice…a choice I regret…I choice I wish I hadn’t had to make, but there you are…

When we got her from the ASPCA she was a pup, short haired and small, what we didn’t know was that she had a skin worm and when cured she ended up long haired and 110 pounds…of crazy dog…you didn’t walk that dog…you ran that dog…but she loved my kid…until the epilepsy invaded her body and her personality…

When the daughter was outside with the dog, no force on earth could harm her (that is the daughter)…the dog watched over her like the boarder collie in her would have watched over the flock…if anyone came within 100 yards of the yard there were the 3 barks to alert us of the fact, daughter was shepherded to the front stoop and the dog followed the person on the sidewalk as they pasted the house and GD help them if they put a foot on the front yard…when left alone for 8 hours one time the dog ate a pillow chair I had…ah well…the dog loved my mom…it was cupboard love… but love none the less…mom would always bring it a knuckle bone or some other variety of beef bone …and the dog loved her…if my mom was coming all we had to say to the dog was “ grandma is coming” and the dang dog would run window to window until mom arrived…and then would get so excited that it would piddle on the floor…the 5 of us, dad, mom, wife, child and I would be playing cards…well the kid at that age would be on one of our laps kibitzing…and the dang dog would have it’s head in my mom’s lap the whole time…

Dang…why did I think about that tonight… I miss my mom…she’s been gone the last 7+ years…and I miss her…she had a stroke…a massive one….but hung on for several months…died just short of Christmas, just short of her 81st birthday (she was a new years baby)…dang…I miss that dear sweet lady…she loved a white Christmas…and we hadn’t had any snow to speak of, and the day she died it snowed to beat the band …in fact as I was trying to finish the few things I really needed to do at work after finding out about her passing I skidded the company SUV into a curb and destroyed the rim on one of the wheels…(dang…that’s the first time I’ve even remembered that in over 7 years)

The weird part of the whole deal was we had the services and calling hours the day after Christmas…one of my bud’s as he passed the receiving line said to me “Bud (the name I’m know by in the real world) don’t be surprised if A doesn’t come to your mom’s calling hours (I’ve know A for years through war gaming)…they found his dad dead of heart attack Christmas morning…oh hell…one of the hardest things I have ever done was to go to the calling hours of friend A’s father, the next day after my mom’s calling hours…with the same funeral home doing the arrangements…as I walked into the home ( we had the complete calling hours and services at the home church) the staff at the home just looked at me and I could see the honest pity in their eyes( as in what the hell are you doing here…friend A’s dad died 3 days after my mom…I rather be any other place in the world but…)…like what are you doing here…the weird thing is that the fellow who told me about A that is the Big R…I’ve know the R-man since I’ve moved to Watertown almost 40 years ago and I had just been to his dad’s calling hours 2 weeks before…2 weeks in my life I’d rather not repeat…but the A-man…as I shook his hand and gave my regrets broken down…he said…”B I’m so sorry I wasn’t there for you yesterday but I wasn’t in my right mind” I said “ don’t worry about it man, we knew it was coming for 6 months, you had no idea that your dad was even sick, I understand”…

Nite all

I had the best night’s sleep I’ve had in months last night, 8+ hours without any wakeups at all, so I should have been hitting the ground ready for anything this AM, forget about it, the cold I’ve been trying to get for the last month, I finally got…needed to make an appearance at work but not at any particular time…so 9:30 AM it was…but fighting the first day of a cold did the absolute minimum necessary to get month end done Monday AM…got take out for lunch…veggied this afternoon…a quick garlic pizza for supper, and maybe I’ll feel like doing my chores tomorrow…nothing absolutely needs to be done…

The T-man at work has discovered stronghold crusader which I’ve been playing for 2+ years…bunches of questions…one I couldn’t answer…so started playing this afternoon…to see if I could figure out the answer…figured it out in about the first 45 minutes and played about 6 hours anyways…now I come from a miniature war game background…pushing little lead men across a board…stronghold crusader is the only real time, tactic level PC game I play…neat game…

Have been hangin’ out on #blogshares and the blogshares forum tonight…I’ve played the game blogshares for nearly 3 years now, but as of late the community around the game is more important then the game itself…

Friday, January 27, 2006

End of month Fridays are nightmares, or rather have the potential to be nightmares…and usually fulfill their potential. Well this one was far worse then that…not only would it have been extremely busy under normal circumstances, but because we are in the middle of a change over in the ERP software we’re using, we are still running both packages as mirrors of each other, so everything has to be done in both system…what a pain in the …well…oh my…neck (hehe). And I made a clerical error and never got out until almost an hour late…got a sub and said forget the chores and errands planned for tonight…tomorrow is another day. Have to put in maybe 3 hours tomorrow but have an 8AM to 2:30 PM window to do it in so the alarm stays off tomorrow morning…

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Today went ½ way decent, but to more being an end of month Friday is stacking up to be weird…well when I opened my AT&T bill tonight I discovered why my check book didn’t balance with the bank statement…apparently check lost in the mail…nuts…I hate late fees when it’s my fault but when I get one when it isn’t ………argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…

Anyways did banking, what few errands I needed to run and paid all my bills currently due…and am a bit ahead…won’t last long probably but then you never know…have spent a quiet night with my cats…a nice night…check that, did get one telemarketer type call…but other then that…no wolves at the doorstep tonight…nite all

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

While perusing my dashboard when preparing to post the preceding I noticed that I am 87, and after this 86 posts from the 2000 post mark…have been blogging since October of ’02…actually I’m surprised this blog has lasted that long…usually I get bored with everything after awhile…or at least slack off…also past 6000 hits this morning on my sitemeter…only counter I have that allows me to filter out my own “hits”…okay I know 6000 in 3+ years is pathetic…but then the musings and ramblings of a 58 year old man who lives alone with his 3 cats…now that’s pathetic (hehe)

We got some snow today, which is kind of nice, seeing how it winter, and what we’ve had for the most part in high 30’s and rain…very dreary…very hard on the old trollie’s arthritis…

Work was a freak show, and with Friday being an “end of the month Friday”…things will probably get worse. Okay so Friday is only the 27th but it’s the last business (reading shipping day) in the fiscal month…and everyone panics …and as I have got at least one and I fear two full truck loads to load, + and inbound…not a whole lot else is liable to get done…which has in the past lead to some rather heated conversations…rats…

Was lazy tonight so stopped at the take out seafood place…got a nice piece of deep fried haddock, an order of fries and ½ pound of potato salad w/egg. Probably tonight’s supper, a lunch tomorrow and a late night snack to be arranged…and all for under $10…

Have been in a very distracted mood tonight…nothing…not even mythbusters seems to be able to hold my attention and it’s a new episode…

(Note: typing seems to be one of those other things tonight…thank GD for spell check)

I’ve been feeling very tired of late, just too heavy of a load for the old trollie and haven’t had the opportunity to get any days away…am trying to schedule some time next month to take a few days and just get some down time…might decide to go away for a few days but will have to check the check book for that…

Monday, January 23, 2006

I really can’t believe it, about 3+ years ago the IT guy at work, in a very off-handed way mentioned blogging to me…well I checked out blogger…what the heck…looked like a neat thing to divert my time…in the beginning I played constantly with my template…added a bunch of bells and whistles…all of those are gone…but the blog lives…and in the next 2 or 3 months the 2000th post will be written…I might issue a stamp, a coin or just bay at the moon…

Not a bad day as days go, I had a rough time deciding to get out of bed this AM, and a rough early part of the day physically…but not a bad day as days go when you have a physically and mentally demanding job and are 58+ years old…have lost about 15 pounds since the turn of the year…weight has gotten a little away from me and I need to get back down to about 190 lbs., probably not a target weight for me in any doctors point of view, but with the physical, strength effort my job requires, a decent target weight…about 20+ pounds to go…

I spent most of the night watching a little tube…I almost never watch any tube without at least two cats… cat aggie (huge bodied cat at circa 20 lbs.) and the ancient (almost 16 years old jenny, at maybe 9 pounds)…fight it out for my lap…and the older J-ster usually wins out…but avoiding the wars and resting on the top of the recliner, is the extremely small bodied lilly…when I got her some 3 or 4 years ago she was about 1 and ½ years old and weighted in at 28 oz. Obviously under fed and mal treated…I really hate people who would take out their frustrations on the wee creatures…especially cats…she now weights in at a awesome 4 and ½ pounds…but if in the mood kicks the arse of her older and heavier mates…is my constant friend…on the top of the recliner…

Not a bad day, not a good day, just a day, a workday…dang. Change over seems to be going ok to the new computer system, web based instead of local server, and a step up to the newer version of the software…several steps up actually…I don’t like the newer version as of yet…it seems to me a bit twitchy…and a bit slower then the older version…whether that’s the change to net based, or the fact that it just isn’t the older version, or it actually is a bit twitchy…time will tell…a solid 4 and ½ hours taken out of the middle of the day with 2 out bounds…#1 took way longer then I would have like, but a split load and way more strip time then I had anticipated…load #2 should have been a “see spot run load”, one location…every thing a short run…but didn’t turn out that way…an ESL driver ( sorry English as a second language) and the barriers that that will often bring to communication, also a driver who insisted at “looking over my shoulder” as I loaded. I really hate that…I’ve loaded over the last 25+ years 1000’s of trucks and probably more then half of the refrigerated trailers…I am well aware of the California bridge laws…I know how to load a trailer so it will scale, and I am aware that you have to “pull it” and you get the fine if it’s loaded wrong but sit in the truck and let me do the job…it will be okay…

20+ years ago you could load 45000 pounds on an over the road trailer and there was no problem…but with the move to 53’ trailers and the rolling apartment sized tractors…43000 is about max…particularly for a refrier…

But when I told the driver this load might reach 42000 he had a problem…d*mn the broker we deal with…they know our loads might approach 43000, they are instructed not to send a truck that can’t take that weight…but they constantly send us truckers who don’t want to haul max weight…traffic doesn’t give two sh*ts because they don’t have to deal one to one with the drivers…well this one came in just over 41000, driver said I’m going to scale and I might be back…h*ll I knew he’d be okay…I may not be able to create world peace, I may not be able to understand the secrets of the universe…but I can load a 48 or 53 foot trailer within 1000 pounds of gross and give the driver if he has an ounce of ability the ability to scale the axles…h*ll just go up or down a couple of notches son…

A bit of Mac and cheese for supper…not really hungry…still over tired…still hoping for some time off…I need a few down days to get back to par but…

Sunday, January 22, 2006

My responsibilities at church went find…despite the fact that I was still overtired…I was still in a bad place physically…services went fine…had nothing to do where I was…but if I do what GD requires of me…in the way it is required it works despite my inabilities…

A waste day otherwise…nite all
It's late, I should have been in bed hours ago…but the mind is still whirling…a nasty day… a down day…a brief appearance at work…a little take out for lunch…a simple for dinner…if shallots and a good imported Italian salami can be involved in simple…and more good brandy then I should have indulged in…nite all