trials of a troll trying to get by in a world messed up by humankind [ I'M AT UTC -5]

Sunday, April 30, 2006

“Dang…I was “off” all day…’nough said

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Refused to set the alarm this AM despite the fact that I needed to go into work for a few hours to put the end to month end numbers and inventory…figured I had until 2:30 PM…that’s when maintenance leaves…. except they pulled a fast one on me and left at noon…I was done at 11:30 but I hate it when peeps tell me one thing and do another…

Had a bunch of things I needed to do today…housework wise but none got done…just felt really low physically today and not at my tops in another way…must do those things but must have the where with all to accomplish them…

Friday, April 28, 2006

Okay so I admit to be a pathetic idiot…but I’ve gotten hooked on the charmed reruns on TnT…which start at 5PM which gives me a half an hour to get home before work and the start time…well needed to fill the car with gas…. well not fill it…the last time I did that I leaked gas and although on warrantee the dang manufacturer refuse to admit it was a fault in construction and I was out a bunch of cash I really couldn’t afford to be out…but that is another story I will not tell…so made a quick pizza as the line at the take out food place on route to home was packed…a store bought shell…evoo…minced garlic…a good NYS sharp white cheddar, and a few crushed black olives…tomato sauce is never part of a pizza for me…I like my pizzas white…I may cut a few nice roma tomatoes for a topping….or maybe a few sun dried tomatoes on top…but the “typical” pizza with tomato sauce…spare me…not my thing…

Work went surprisingly well today…a month end Friday…and when as I do you run shipping/receiving…inventory/inventory control and MRP at a small industry concern …end of month Fridays can be a b*tch…but today was a relative passive day….a few moments of craziness but basically smooth…must good in tomorrow to put the finally touches on month end inventory and dump final numbers in to the computer system for month end but no more then 3 hours unless I hit a snag…

Grass needs a cutting and that needs to be done within a few days…a few household chores as well…I really hope a awake in the right frame of mind and body to accomplish those tasks…

Did not post to the blog after watching survivor last night…I have decided that Shane may be the biggest foul every to play the game…

Thursday, April 27, 2006

I was at maybe the lowest ebb I’ve been in a long time physically…but had a very easy day…and took the PM off…and feel decent now…

Keyboard died last night…the IT guy at work loaned me one to make sure that was the problem…he owed me because I basically talked in through a problem with the ERP software…he knows computers but I know the software package we run at work better then anyone…

A quiet…gentle rest of the day

Nite all

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

This was clearly not the best day I’ve ever had, not the worst day but not the best day…explanation will follow at some point in the future…

I had to be in an hour early and I think the alarm rang for almost a minute before it aroused me from sleep…one of those times when the alarm was more a part of the last dream of the night then it was a part of reality…

By days end I was spent…no energy…no focus…got take out and watched some tube…

Watched the latest episode of top chef on bravo…Stephen is gone…finally…I thought that Leeann might have bought the farm tonight and that would have been a shame…of the four remaining only David IMHO doesn’t belong…any of the other three I would accept as the winner…

O I'm in a very bad place tonight on almost every level…but I will survive…I always have…and I always will until it is my “time”

Monday, April 24, 2006

It’s weird…I should be in a lousy mood tonight and I’m not…had made an appointment to get my annually state car inspection…knew that I had a couple of things that won’t pass…and although I spent more the I really wanted too, spent less then I thought…and although I will have to be budget careful until my tax refunds arrive I’m ok…. maybe…

But I will survive…I always do and if I don’t I probably won’t know that I didn’t….

Had a phone chat with my daughter tonight…learned things I’d never know…if I had know them I would have kicked my ex’s ass out of my life long before she left me…

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Brother stopped by briefly last night…has decided with age that the only sport still available was golf…had several questions…had bought a set of maxfli A10’s…did he make the right choice…and an invite for dinner today…saw his wife in church this morning…and parenthetically church went great…worship team rocked in both services and class went great…I was sitting in the narthex during first service and informed sis in law that I had too much to do today to come out for dinner…I had felt lousy yesterday and needed to do today what hadn’t got done yesterday…she informed me that she had told my brother that’s what I would say and simply won’t accept that response…that i owed my family my attendance…and I needed to be there…truth is my brother’s wife is the only member of the family that I would take that kind of a thought from and even consider changing my mind…we have a contention…we both are well experimental cooks…so while I have put off doing what I had intended for way too long…I went…had a nice time…but I regret having the desire to accomplish certain things but not doing that…but I’m blaming it on the K-lady…

Saturday, April 22, 2006

I’m p*ssed tonight…well maybe not p*ssed but very annoyed…a few of the people I have chosen as close to me could have made a choice that would have given me a little human contact…I live alone…except for my two cats and there was an opportunity to allow me human contact that was denied…because…well I don’t know why…


It’s late but I don’t have a “wake up” call tomorrow…don’t have to be anywhere until I decide I have to be somewhere…a little TV tonight…a little blogshares…a little #blogshares…and a bit of stronghold crusader PC game…a snack of an pears and peanut butter…if I have fresh pears…probably my favorite fruit…I like them raw with a large potion of blue cheese…if heated…blue cheese and balsamic vinegar…if canned then with peanut butter…the latter is a hold over from my youth and mom’ cooking…occasionally as a dessert but more often as a salad with a meal she would serve canned pear halves on lettuce with a spoon full of peanut butter in the hole that was made by the pit…one of the two fav memories of my mom’s food as a kid…the other…well we’ll talk about that at another time

Friday, April 21, 2006

Today has been several disjoined days in one…I slept poorly yet well last night…went to bed early but never slept more then an hour and a half at anyone stretch…a bad dream here, too long in one position there and a run to the can there…the whole workday was just as disjointed…a very busy…very frustrating morning…followed by a bit less distressful but strange afternoon…why do the work peeps demand a response/responsibility from me on things that are totally out of my control…dang…

A few errands…an a bit of TV…and the rather constant presence of cat aggie on my lap…just a very strange and weird day…but two off and I hope to get some stability in what was a weird week…

I got more p*ssed off then I’ve been in a long time tonight…I’m a forum moderator for blogshares forum (a link to my blogshares profile can be found somewhere in the right sidebar under” listed on blogshares” …

Well the peep posted a message accusing the moderators of a particular board of an action that he himself took…maybe I’m over tired…and in a lousy mood but it really p*ssed me off…I haven’t got that aggressive in months but I backed him down…but still despite the fact that I accept his apology …I still have a raw taste in my mouth so to speak…

A nice dinner of sausage gravy over toasted English muffins… a very nice store bought brand at a dollar store which IMHO is better then name brand products…

And a gentle night…I have basically chilled out tonight…except I still harbor a bit of resentment for the unwarranted attack on blogshares…whether I will get over it…gently…or attack the guy legally within game rules…(trollie flips a coin and the dang thing lands on edge)…nuts

Thursday, April 20, 2006

I have been involved as of late in an ongoing email chain with a bunch of guys I’ve know for almost 40 years…actually my brother knows most of them better then I do…he was 8 when we moved to Watertown and I was 18…but it’s been a blast remembering the good and the bad times…I’m the oldest of the group by a bunch…but at our gathering last year I made the best pasta salad…

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

A very frustrating workday…things are sliding to the end of the week…and tomorrow and particularly Friday promise to be monsters…and a bunch of nagging issues today that there seemed to be no explanation for…and a bunch more that there were the same explanation for the last time they cropped up…dang…I have explained the same mistake to the same peep at least a half dozen times and the same mistake gets done every time…if you don’t really understand how to accomplish a task on the software that you do 6 times a year and I do 100+ times a year then ask me to do it…rather the make the same dang mistake you make every time…it’s a minute job done right and a hassle done wrong…

Was so blown out by days end that I got take out…just had not the energy to even consider cooking…

I hate to admit it but I have gotten addicted to the “Charmed” reruns on TnT…

Watched the new episode of “Top Chef” on bravo-tv…have no problem with the guy who went home…have a major problem with the winner of the last challenge…

Made an appointment to get to get my car inspected on Monday morning…now the trick is to remember Monday that I go to the dealership at 8 AM…and not to work…

I have spent most of the night whether watching tube or on the computer with a cat on my lap…my two “babies” have spent the night rotating on and off said lap…a common occurrence…which I accept…I leave them alone most of the day…but do they really need to sit on my face so I can’t see anything but their hairy butts…

Nite all
Today was one of those days when nothing went terribly wrong…but nothing went more then marginally right…a neutral day…and they bug me more then anything…I’d rather be neck deep in crap then have a neutral day…

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

I made a very simple but vey elegant pizza for supper tonight, if elegant can be proper applied to pizza…a store bought shell…I have neither the time nor the ability to make the shell myself…well I f truth be told I have the ability but not the patience…a little evoo. A bit of garlic…a tad of Romano cheese and a toping of sun dried tomatoes and 12 minutes at 475*…a beautiful thing…. And a delight to the pallet…

I’m listening to a little Holst…a tad of Tchkaik…and if I stay awake that long a tad of Britian…

Live with it…I rarely listen to anything outside the classical domain

I’ve got to admit regretfully that I am impressed with the work I’ve seen of the actress Anne Hathaway okay so maybe silly chick flicks and teenier fare but she is a babe and a very good sight comic

Not a bad day…not a good day…just a day.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

I am never going to watch the next food next work star on the food channel again…they pulled the same crap they did last year…they chose when push came to shove an ethic cook to advance and sent home a “white bread” cook who’s style and dishes were better, simply because they need an “ethnic star” and frankly while I understand the move from the corporate stand point…it’s simple crap…

I have had a bad couple of days physically…although I have felt better a of late…Easter Sunday…services and class went fine even though I I way below par…went to the daughter’s for dinner…a fine meal…roast pork done with a honey glaze, which was very nice and one done with a cherry glaze that was out of the park…nice meal…

Friday, April 14, 2006

It was a gentle day…well not entirely…I did do my state and federal tax returns today…I have no idea why I left them to the last minute so to speak…I knew I had money coming back…last year I filed at the last possible time because I knew I owed…this year…no guess…but I regress…it was a gentle day…I actually got a paid holiday off…in the 34+ years I have worked for the same employer I have worked on every paid holiday at least once except Christmas day…and almost every year we have had Good Friday for a holiday I’ve worked it…this was a first…I actually got the day off…no pages…no despite phone calls…no we need to have this truck loaded today…an absolute miracle…

A beautiful early spring day…beside the taxes I did a few errands…and basically chilled…I need 3 days without stress bad…and I’ve gotten 1 in a row…

I opened the window in my bedroom/computer room…and my two indoor cats have been taking turns on the sill…I think they probably enjoy the warm breezes more then I

Nite all

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Today was …well a very typical work day…I must admit a sense of frustration with a couple of things that went down…a typical lack of communication and lack of understanding in what my department’s job entails but that’s normal…I expect it so…on the whole a normal day

Made a pizza for supper and watched the top chef marathon on bravo…as well as the latest flick that tries to depict the legend of Arthur, King of the Britons…as with all of the many attempts it falls short…but it does set the tale in a more historical time frame then most…maybe a tad early but at least not in the age of steel armored knights…and the lass that plays Guinevere what a babe, and the movie depicts her as a warrior …as it should…okay so I’m a dirty old man we’ve had this conversation before live with it…

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Today was a difficult physical day…had to spend way too much time at the warehouse and way too much time on the forklift…to those who have never run one of those short wheel based, 4 ton vehicles with a one ton load, and no shocks, no springs and absolutely stiff suspension over an uneven floor at 58 years old has no idea of the pounding the body takes driving one…plus the absolute concentration it takes or you mess something up big time…back and knees are killing me tonight…plus the damage that pounding the concrete floors of a factory for the last 35+ years have taken it’s toll, my feet are killing me tonight…dang

Cat Aggie is on my lap purring her little heart out, but for a 20 pound house cat I doubt little is the proper term, of all the cats that I have shared my home with she is the one who just sits there, enjoys the quality time and allows me to do my keyboard thing…

Worship team practice was cancelled tonight…and on one hand I was glad…really not in the mood physically or emotionally to go out tonight…but on the other hand was greatly disappointed…I love to sing…I love the peeps and I missed practice last week because of the problem with the car…I had called looking for a ride but the church secretary had forgotten about it until practice had started…nuts…

But a gentle night…

Nite all

Work went pretty good today…dock repair that’s been ongoing at the warehouse seems to be almost all done so things can return to normal…realized I am lacking a crucial piece of information to file my taxes…but should have that in the next couple of days…found out today while in theory we have a holiday Friday (Good Friday)…there is a possibility I may have to work at less part of the day…not a big deal…with a few recent set backs I could use the extra cash…a gentle night…

Night all

Sunday, April 9, 2006

Today has been a strange day, the things I intended to do were undone and things I had no intention of doing…were…a bizarre and strange day…’nough said

Saturday, April 8, 2006

What a work day, we are on production shutdown this week, so only the maintenance guys and I are working of the “floor”…so they schedule a total hand loaded 20' container for today…312 rolls all handed loaded and the majority around 90 Lbs. per…you got to be kidding…they fortunate ask the mad-beast to come in today and he agreed…but still took us over 3 hours to do…dang…

This is a post of some importance…not the content to be sure…most of the content in this blog frankly isn’t…content that is but I’ve been maintaining this slag heap for almost 3 and a half years now and this is the 2000TH post…dang…who would ever believed I could come up with this much crap…

Friday, April 7, 2006

Worst night's sleep I’ve had in ages…felt out of it on every level today but some how got through the day…and tomorrow promises to be a bear…but I’m not tired right now…the physical condition can be a fickle mistress at times…dang

Wednesday, April 5, 2006

I regretfully admit that I’m a reality TV junky…I both love and hate Survivor…I love it but I hate that the strongest player rarely wins…besides Survivor I love the performance based reality shows…Big Break on the Golf Channel…Top Chef and Project Runway on Bravo…and King Of Vegas on Spike…pathetic I know but what the h*ll

I got the car back today…but I am very annoyed with the manufacturer… I have a 5 year…50000 mile bumper to bumper warrantee…and they refused to cover the repair…they say I over filled the gas tank…which I didn’t…it’s not really about the money…(hell yes I hated to spend it)…but it’s about the dang principle…I said to the service dude that I was really going to be pissed if 6 months down the road there was a recall for the problem I just paid for…not to worry…said he…but if that happened they would retro the problem and refund me…sorry but I don’t believe that…I know I’m not going to terribly affect the manufacturer’s bottom line but that’s the last d*mn car of that make I buy…and the family has bought four in the last 10 years…won’t leave the dealership…after five cars in 15 years this is the first problem and I honestly think they did the best they could to get it covered…

The day ran fairly well and I feel decent tonight but the warrantee thing does rankle…

Tuesday, April 4, 2006

Work was fairly busy today, got almost everything done…was good news bad news day…car will be ready tomorrow but the work and parts was not covered by the warrantee…so I’ve got a rather nasty repair bill to pay…but at least I get my wheels back…I called trying to get a ride to practice but some how the food fell of the fork and it never came…have spent a gentle night

Nite all

Monday, April 3, 2006

Yesterday was a wasted day, didn’t feel good, car was in the shop…no post

Well today might be another day but car is still in the shop, apparently they are having a problem figuring out why my car is leaking gas…I really hope they come up with something soon because this is starting to wear on me……..

Saturday, April 1, 2006

Weird, I called the dealer that has my car, read below, mid afternoon…service hadn’t gotten to it yet…service called back late afternoon…can’t figure out exactly what happened…but here’s the weird thing…same day my was towed in, a car of the same maker, same model, same year, a virtually identical mileage was towed in for the exact same problem…he decided to hold both cars until Monday to be able to talk to the manufacturer…it may or may not be a defect…and my or may not be covered under the warrantee…sure hope it is but if I have to pay then I will…at least the tow was covered…

So I’m without a vehicle until at least sometime Monday…work isn’t a problem…a two mile walk is no big deal…and I have access to the company truck if I have to go to the warehouse…never use it normally…I hate pickup trucks…but beggars can’t be choosers…

To add insult to injury I have a nasty cold…I called my pastor tonight and told him that everything being kind of stack against me I would not be at church tomorrow…in the 14 or so years I have been involved in that congregation I have missed maybe 6 Sundays…he understood and told me to have a restful day…I have responsibilities but they will have to be filled by other’s tomorrow…I regret it but some times things happen…

With everything that is going wrong at this point the really weird thing is that except for the physical (and I feel rather low tonight in that aspect)…on every other level I feel pretty good…

Cat aggie on the other hand of late has been out of character, she has never been a particular “lap” cat…but with the passing of her arch rival…the much regretted passing of the feisty lilly bell…she has turned into a very affectionate lap cat…and at near 20 lbs. That is a weight so to speak…

I have lived with cats for near 25 years now and their personalities, and abrupt personality swings never cease to amaze me…but as I live alone they are great companions…and as I am gone or sleeping more then I am home…or awake…they are much more adaptable to that then a dog…

Nite all